Saturday, June 24, 2006

Mi Universo (My Universe)

This song by Jesus Adrian Romero has really convicted me over the past few weeks. I dont think the translation will do it justice, but I want to share it anyway.



que seas mi universo
(Be my universe)
no quiero darte sólo un rato de mi tiempo
(I don't want to give you just a little bit of my time)
no quiero separarte un día solamente
(I don't want to set aside just one day for you)
que seas mi universo
(I want you to be my universe)
no quiero darte mis palabras como gotas
(I don't want to give you my words like drops)
quiero un diluvio de alabanzas en mi boca
(I want a flood of praises in my mouth)

que seas mi universo
(Be my universe)
que seas todo lo que siento y lo que pienso
(be everything I feel and think)
que seas el primer aliento en la mañana, y la luz en mi ventana
(I want you to be the first breath in the morning,
and the light in my window)
que seas mi universo
(I want you to be my universe)
que llenes cada uno de mis pensamientos
(I want you to fill every one of my thoughts)
que tu presencia y tu poder sean mi alimento
(that your presence and power be my "nutrients")
oh Jesús es mi deseo
(Jesus is my desire)
que seas mi universo
(Be my universe)

no quiero darte sólo parte de mis años
(I dont want to give you just part of my years)
te quiero dueño de mi tiempo y de mi espacio
(I want you to be owner of my time and space)
que seas mi universo
(Be my universe)
no quiero hacer mi voluntad, quiero agradarte
(I don't want to have my way, I want to please you)
y cada sueño que hay en mi quiero entregarte
(And I want to give you all of my dreams)

que seas mi universo
que seas todo lo que siento y lo que pienso
que seas el primer aliento en la mañana, y la luz en mi ventana
que seas mi universo
que llenes cada uno de mis pensamientos
que tu presencia y tu poder sean mi alimento
oh Jesús es mi deseo
que seas mi universo

Trying to Make Sense of Things

I've been really pensive lately as school has been out for a month. I have had a lot of time to just slow down and relax. It has been a time of reevaluating life and searching.

I hope every young adult goes through times like these. After we graduate college and go off into the real world and get a real job, it is kind of a shock to the system. There are times that I wish I could go back to school and be with my friends for just a little while... Midnight Oil, nertz, ultimate frisbee, Gilmore Girl marathons; you name it, I have missed it.

I look around here and see all these new things that God has brough into my life, and I'm still wondering why. Right now, though, it's not so much the "why?" but the "what am i supposed to do with all of this?" I just want to make sense of it all. It was especially hard to come back after being in Mexico for a week. There's something about going to Monterrey, as I have for the past 3 summers, and being with those people. They really live life. Some of them have next to nothing, but they would still give you the clothes off their back. I think that's why I miss it so much is because to them it's all about relationships and people. I long to have a heart like they do. I long to give like they do and love like they do - purely and unconditionally and expecting nothing in return. Passion. They live with passion. I want that. I want to love with passion, pray with passion, live with passion. Sometimes I look around me and just want to scream at the top of my lungs... Wake up! Just wake up and open your eyes! Live life, appreciate the people around you! Just make an effort to do something that for once has nothing to do with yourself that will bless someone else. This is what I long for... this unbridled, untamed love that Christ loves us with. If I could just learn to love like He does... maybe then life would make more sense. Or maybe it wouldn't matter that it didn't.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

I Am




I Am
Nicole Nordeman



Pencil marks on a wall, I wasn’t always this tall
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed
You watched my team win
You watched my team lose
You watched when my bicycle went down again
And when I was weak, unable to speak
Still I could call You by name
And I said, Elbow Healer, Superhero
Come if you can
You said, I Am

Only sixteen, life is so mean
What kind of curfew is at 10pm?
You saw my mistakes
And watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I’d never love again
And when I was weak, unable to speak
Still I could call You by name
And I said, Heartache Healer, Secret Keeper
Be my best friend
And You said, I Am

You saw me wear white by pale candlelight
I said forever to what lies ahead
Two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream
Too much it might seem when it is 2am
And when I am weak, unable to speak
Still I will call You by name
Shepherd, Savior, Pasture Maker
Hold onto my hand
You say, I Am

The winds of change and circumstance blow in and all around us
So we find a foothold that’s familiar
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer

When life had begun, I was woven and spun
You let the angels dance around the throne
And who can say when, but they’ll dance again
When I am free and finally headed home
I will be weak, unable to speak
Still I will call You by name
Creator, Maker, Life Sustainer
Comforter, Healer, my Redeemer
Lord and King, Beginning and the End

I Am
Yes, I Am